The day
lightning chose me.

I was thirteen when my body first broke.

It was a stress fracture — a small crack in the lower spine, earned on the volleyball court through too much of what I loved. I went to the hospital, and they told me to rest, and to come back in a month. So I rested. And after a month, I went back.

They took an X-ray, looked at it, and told me the bone had healed. They gave me a compress and something for the pain, and sent me home. But the pain stayed. So I went back. Another X-ray. The bone is fine. Another compress. I went back again. And again. For one hundred and eighty days.

All I wanted was for the pain to stop. That was all. But each time, the same answer, the same ritual: a picture taken, a verdict given, there is nothing wrong. And slowly I understood something that, as a boy, I could not yet put into words — every one of them was talking to the X-ray. Not one of them was talking to me.

I began to give up.

Then my coach said a word I had never heard before: acupuncture. A needle treatment. He thought it might help.

I went the way a drowning person reaches for straw — not with hope, but because there was nothing else left to reach for. Half afraid of the needles, half curious about them, and underneath both, certain of nothing. It will be the same as always, I thought. A picture, a verdict, a compress. Why would this be any different?

I had grown so used to being unheard that I had stopped expecting to be.

But he was different.

The first thing he did was listen. Where does it hurt? Since when? Show me. He moved my leg. He pressed here, and here. He looked at my X-rays — and then he looked at me, and asked me things, and waited for my answers. We had a conversation. It sounds like such a small thing to write down. But to a boy who had spent half a year being spoken over, it was the first time anyone in a white coat had spoken to him.

And then he told me what no one else had.

The bone, he said, has indeed healed. But when you fractured it, the pain made your muscles clench, and your body — to protect itself, to flee from the hurt — twisted itself into a posture of avoidance. And it has held that shape ever since. The fracture closed months ago. But its shadow stayed in you, written into the muscle, the way an old wound writes itself into the body and remains.

A healed bone does not mean a vanished pain.

I cannot tell you what those words did to me. The scales fell from my eyes. For one hundred and eighty days I had been told there was nothing wrong, while something was so plainly, painfully wrong. And here, at last, was a person who could see the thing I had been feeling all along — and name it.

And then he set my body right — exactly as he had explained it. He treated me with his needles.

One session. Sixty minutes. And the pain that had lived in me for one hundred and eighty days was, that same day, eighty percent gone. By the second session, it had nearly vanished. After the third, it was simply — gone. As if it had never been.

I will never forget the feeling of being able to move again, fully, freely, with my whole body and my whole joy. I can summon it even now, as clear as the day it happened.

And in that moment — before any thought could form, before my mind could reason its way to anything — something in me said: This. This is what I want to do. It came not as a decision but as a recognition, the way you recognise a face you have somehow always known. It struck me like lightning. I felt it, exactly, in my body. I feel it still.

That man — he was to become one of the two teachers of my life.

Looking back now, I think connections in a life are not built all at once. They take their shape slowly, quietly, almost imperceptibly — and only later, turning around, do you see the form they were making all along.

The half-year of pain that would not leave. The hospital that could not hear me. The despair of being told, again and again, that nothing was wrong. I had thought all of it was wasted suffering. But it was not. Quietly, surely, every piece of it had been leading me to that room, to that man, to that needle, to the moment lightning found me. Had I not suffered for one hundred and eighty days, I would never have reached for the straw. The suffering was not the obstacle to my path. The suffering was the path.

The ones who help us. The ones who delight us. The ones who discipline us. The ones who hand us our trials. Perhaps, in a life, there is no such thing as an unnecessary meeting.

That day, when I was thirteen, is the origin of everything I am still becoming.

And so my belief has only ever been one thing:

To be the practitioner who could have helped the thirteen-year-old me. To be the practitioner that boy was looking for.

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